Today has been a big day, I know I’ve said that a lot recently but it doesn’t make it any less right.
As of today 17-06-2017, my little baby girl Jessica is now a full Six Months old.
Where has the time gone?
It feels like only yesterday that the wife shouted me through to the bedroom at 01:53 am to tell me that her water had broken and I had to rush her up to the hospital, completely freaking out the whole time. Then a short four hours later at 05:57 am she was born.
That is a day that I will never forget, holding her for the first time, I just lost it. I couldn’t speak for a full forty minutes. No words could pass my lips. The emotions just completely overwhelmed me.
I have never felt anything like, and I don’t think anything in my life will ever come close to that feeling again.
She is amazing, and that first time I held her I barely managed to keep myself together.
After I finally managed to get myself together, I left and went outside to call my family. I could barely speak to any of them I managed to get the words out, saying that she was perfect, her weight and that both mother and baby were doing fine, me not so much, but they were great.
I have never been short of things to say, but that day I was a wreck.
At around 8 am my sister came up to the hospital to see me before she went to work and I couldn’t even speak to her I just took one look at her and broke into tears, and she just hugged me. No words could be said.
Now six months on as I’m writing this it still brings tears to my eyes
*hang on I need to take a moment to compose myself*
*Ok I’m back*
just how much love entered me that day through my little girl.
It hasn’t been easy a lot has happened since then but that day, some good, some bad, some that almost destroyed my life completely. But here we are She is six months old and the love I feel for her has only grown.
Every day she changes, and I keep thinking to myself ‘Please don’t get any bigger, stay just as you are.’ Even as I have watched her blossom from a little wrinkly bundle of love to what she is now.
I have never come across a human being on this planet who can smile and sneeze at the same time, but she can do it.
She smiles all the time and has the most amazing eyes I’ve ever seen, people say, and I have to agree, that she looks like me, but how she is so gorgeous when being cursed to look like me, I will never understand. But she is.
I have only loved one other person as much as I love her, and if you are reading this you know who you are, everything I do, everything I own, will ever do from the day I met the love of my life is hers and only hers.
She is my reason for going on, my reason for being, my reason for everything.
And tomorrow, Well today now, is my first Fathers Day that could be interesting.
I can’t believe just how much she has changed in the last six months and I still can’t believe I am her dad, I’m still waiting for the massive screw up to come, but so far I have managed not to do that.
This is a message straight to the Loves of my life:
Jessica, I love you with all of my heart, I will always be here for you no matter what happens. I love you more than life itself.