End of my rope, I don’t know what to do anymore.


I feel like I am at the end of my rope.

I have been out of work now for ten months and its starting to get to me.

Not so much the not working part but it’s the constant rejections that I keep getting. I can’t count the number of emails I have received over the last few months that contain the words “I am writing to let you know that unfortunately, you have not been successful this time.”

It’s funny how this same phrasing keeps coming through to me. I mean come on use a little imagination.

I’m starting to wonder what the hell it is about me that is so rejectable?

It just keeps on coming up repeatedly.

I have thoroughly revamped my CV, it was done by a recruitment specialist, so it’s not that.

The thing that’s bugging me is that it feels like they aren’t even looking at my cv anymore. It feels like they just see my name and hit the reject button.

Even the job that I applied for that I have more than enough experience for, and I thought that I could just walk straight into I got rejected from.

I don’t know how much more of this I can take.

It’s really starting to affect me.

I have thought about striking out on my own and setting up a business to work for myself, but I have no idea what I would do.

Maybe I could just win the lottery.

I really don’t know what to do anymore.


Published by Colin

Hey there, thanks for dropping by. My name is Colin, sometimes I go by the name Scottish Legend. I am 34, married with a beautiful baby girl who is the light of my life. When I grow up I want to be a writer. I have written my first novel and want to try and get it published. One day I'll get there. In the meantime I am spending as much time with my daughter as I can. I've been a stay at home dad for the last year and I have loved every minute of it. I post stories, poetry and rants on here and sometimes heartfelt pieces that I just have to get out. Please feel free to contact me via the contact page and I hope you enjoy my work and life. I look forward to hearing from you If you feel like supporting me by buying a coffee would be appreciated http://ko-fi.com/scottishlegend

4 thoughts on “End of my rope, I don’t know what to do anymore.

  1. Just keep trying. The jobs available are few and far between. Keep at it. Things will change eventually. I have a friend going through the same thing. It’s hard not to get discouraged.


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