I have been away for a while, to be perfectly honest I have been considering giving up this blog completely. I haven’t had the time or motivation to keep it up.
I want to address a few things in this post and gage a reaction from you lovely people who follow me see what happens going forward.
But first I want to say a huge thank you to people who helped me out a while ago. I was in a dark place and I put up a post that I was deeply ashamed off even writing but you all came through and helped me out massively.
If you missed it I asked for help because I was struggling financially and you all came through big style. I did put a post thanking everyone and I will never release the names of the people who helped me as that is not fair to them I would never want to put them into that kind of position but I can’t and won’t ever forget your generosity and how you came to my aid in my time of need.
Thank you all.
On that note, I have put off announcing this as like I said before I have been super busy and not had a lot of motivation for anything recently. I’ve been in a really dark place.
The darkness has been overwhelming, I’ve drawn back into the recesses of my mind and it’s been a real struggle to get back to the light. I am still working on this and its hard but I’m getting there.
Anyway the announcement. I asked for help with my training to becoming a driving instructor and I am happy to announce now that a few weeks ago I finally passed my Theory Test (part one of the training) and I’m now working towards my Practical (part two) and I can see the light coming and that seen ill be able to get out there and start earning.
There is a long road to go but I’m getting there. So I can never thank you all enough for the help.
So, yeah I’ve been in dark place and I’ve been doing what I always do I bottled it up I haven’t talked about it to anyone and I don’t know why I do this, actually yes I do, its because I don’t want to burden anyone else with my problems. But this is a bad idea and we all know that but hey I never claimed to be smart.
Now that I am back writing this post there are a couple of things that I want to get off my chest and here is as good a place and any. Things that have been bugging me.
I have been having some health issues recently which I’ve been dealing with I have found out that I am diabetic and that I had dangerously high blood pressure. Thankfully now though, with medication, I’ve gotten this under control for now but it is a constant source of worry for me.
Money is still a huge worry and it’s getting harder each month, we have a limited amount coming in and we are having to borrow money every month just to keep afloat. It’s hard and demoralising. Even though I have been applying for jobs left right and centre I am getting nowhere and it’s just… hard.
One of the main things that has been bothering me is I seem to have lost one of my oldest and best friends and I have no idea why. She has just stopped talking to me. the last time we spoke was the week before my birthday, she was meant to come down that weekend for a few hours to hang out. since then I got one text on my actual birthday and since then nothing. Not answering calls, text emails nothing. I have sent messages outright asking why she has stopped talking to me and got feck all answer. I have stopped short of turning up at her door and finding out why.
I am not going to go that far. Its been made abundantly clear that she doesn’t want to talk to me anymore and I’m not going to go begging for answers. Well, I guess that’s a 13-year friendship gone down the drain.
So that’s been my life recently.
Yesterday I hit a milestone on here, I hit my 400th follower on WordPress and I am shocked that this has happened. it is a huge achievement for me and its taken over 3 years to get this far and I wanted to say thank you again.
With this in mind, now that I have hit the 400 landmark, I want to change my blog.
I want to see what I can do for others. I want to try and build a place here where everyone has a place to come and say what they want if you want to tell a joke, a story, have a rant or just get something off your chest. I am thinking that if anyone has something to say that they could say it here, free from repercussions anonymity would be there if you want it or if you want to put yourself out there.
I want everyone to have a voice, I want people to support each other and help with problems. Having people to talk to is a big thing and it helps.
Like I said earlier I have been in a dark place and my way of getting out of the dark is to help others, and that’s what I want to do now.
So I want to open this blog up to be a safe place for everyone and for anyone who wants to, to contribute. Not sure how to do that just now but ill work on it.
This blog isn’t about me anymore. It’s about what I can do for others.
You have all helped me through so much over the past few years that I want to give back to anyone I can in anyway that I can.
So, what do you think?