It’s happening again, not sure if i can do it this time.

It is starting again.

I can feel all the insecurities the paranoia, the anxiety and it all flooding back.

Why, oh why did I go back to working in a call centre?

I had a really bad call today at work this guy called up complaining about his bill. I kept trying to explain to him why it was what it was but every time I tried to speak, he just shouted over me not giving me a chance.

Now as you can imagine this got me a bit riled up and I am not the best at hiding my frustration with certain things, cretins really, and this guy was most definitely one.

Anyway, after I finally got him away I then had to have a chat with my manager and quite frankly everything came flooding back to me.

The feelings I had before, the reasons why I said I would never go back to this kind of work

The anxiety, the dark spiralling abyss, the paranoia and now I am absolutely dreading going back in tomorrow.

On top of all that I got hit with the fact that they think I am coming over too negative when in discussions.

So fucking lah dee dah

So yeah, I am now feel like I’m on the edge of abyss looking into the darkness. I don’t know if I can do this again. I don’t know if I can survive this job.

I don’t know if I’m strong enough for this.

I don’t want to go back.

I don’t want to be that guy again.

But I’ve got to have a job to take care of the family.

I just don’t know if I can do this again.


2 thoughts on “It’s happening again, not sure if i can do it this time.

  1. Cyranny says:

    Sorry I missed your come back, Giant! I am so glad to read you again, though I am sorry to know that you are back in the calling center business. I know how you hate that… Oh my, I am sending my warmest wishes so you can find something else, soon! Big hugs


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