It’s been a while since I was last here

Hello, it’s me and I’m here to have an angry rant. Ok so this afternoon we went out to Asda to do a bit of shopping. Me, wifey & child. She was walking holding the wifes hand in the shop. This creepy looking Asian kid started circling round staring at the wee one. So I…

One Day (Poem)

I’ve been thinking of you a lot recently, Thinking of the times we had together, Remembering how we used to laugh, Remembering how we used to cry.   You made me better, You made me whole, I helped you see who you truly are, And you soared higher than I could follow.   All these…

What the hell was that? (excerpt of a potential longer story)

[It’s been a while since I’ve written anything that wasn’t a rant, but the other night an partial idea came to me so I’ve written an excerpt from the idea that I may or may not explore further but its a promising start, and i may still have the abilty to write, maybe. I’d like…

Ho Ho Fucking Ho!

Merry Christmas everybody, I hope you all had a good day and have been celebrating with your families or whomever you celebrate with. As for me well I have had a pretty shitty day. It all started last night (Christmas Eve) when the little one was getting ready to go to bed in anticipation for…

Two years? Where have they gone?

At 5:57 am on the 17th of December 2016 my life changed forever. That was the moment that my daughter Jessica was born and since then nothing has ever been the same. These pictures were taken when she was two hour old. And I’ll be honest she broke me. I’ve said this before she was…

COOKIE

I am making cookies. I am only going to eat one. That counts as one right?

Thank you

To the person who did what you did the other day, you know who you are and you know what you did I just want to say thank you so much for your kindness. 😊

Update on life, Christmas is cancelled

Its been a while, I have been severely lax in updating this blog this last year and it is something that annoys me, I have said before that I haven’t had any inspiration to write recently and that’s true. But that’s not what I’m doing today this is just going to be a rambley update…

Where do I go from here?

I need to get back into doing this blog more regularly but I’ve had no inspiration to write anything. I’ve tried writing but nothing is coming out, and it’s really starting to annoy me. Don’t get me wrong I have ideas I just go blank when I try to put pen to paper. I know…

Well that was tense…

I PASSED MY TEST I PASSED MY TEST I PASSED MY TEST I PASSED MY TEST I PASSED MY TEST I PASSED MY TEST I PASSED MY TEST I PASSED MY TEST I PASSED MY TEST I PASSED MY TEST I PASSED MY TEST I PASSED MY TEST I PASSED MY TEST I PASSED MY…

Quick hello

Panicking now. I have my test tomorrow to retake my driving test. GULP If I pass this then it’s full steam ahead for me to start full training to be a driving instructor and then I can start making loads of cash. I had my mock test on Thursday and I passed woop. That was…

Thinking By The Fire.

Originally posted on Welcome to my world.:
Its that time of the year, The time for remembering, The time for celebrating, The time to remember the love we once had, The time to remember the love that is still there, We were meant to be together, It’s truly what I believe, I knew this the…

One of the problems I live with.

I have to get this off my chest, this is something that happened a couple of weeks ago and I wasn’t going to post anything about it but a thread on twitter brought it back to my mind and I felt I should put it on here so that I can get it off of…

It’s Time For A Change.

Hey folks, I have been away for a while, to be perfectly honest I have been considering giving up this blog completely. I haven’t had the time or motivation to keep it up. I want to address a few things in this post and gage a reaction from you lovely people who follow me see…

What changed?

I know I haven’t been around a lot recently, things have been different for a while now. We don’t talk like we used too, I’ve felt you growing more and more distant, you are sad all the time and nothing I do seems to shake it from your depression. I wish you would talk to…

Let’s get back to basics.

Hello everyone, Hope you are having a good Sunday. I am looking for some inspiration. I really want to get back to writing again but I have not got any idea of what I could write about, I have got nothing going on in-between the old ears (no need to make a joke of that…

I really should listen to myself.

Why can’t I take my own advice? I mean seriously I am such a bloody idiot. The post I made a few days ago, inspired by an excellent yet weird drawing by Kira Scribbles, was all about not dwelling on the past, not looking back at what we can’t have, of what we have lost….

Words of wisdom from Dave.

For those not in the UK Dave is a TV channel here that shows comedy and panel quiz shows. They also have a hilarious twitter account and here are a few of the Gems they put on there

Dwelling on the past.

Everyone wants something. It could be money, food, power, love or even sex. We long for what we can’t have, we long for what we have lost, we worry about what may come. There is no pain greater than the loss of love, except that of what could have been. It may be a cliché…

I can never thank you enough.

Last week I put up a post that I wasn’t even sure I was actually going to post. I was asking for some help as I am really struggling in life right now and the response I got was overwhelming. You are all far too kind and generous and I don’t deserve to have such…

Oh I hate being in this position.

I never thought I would ever, in my life, write a post like this. As I am writing this I’m not even sure if I will post it or not I actually hate myself a little for even thinking about this but here goes.   As anyone who has even so much as glanced at…

I need your light (poem)[sort of]

I keep trying, Hitting my head upon the wall, No matter what I do I seem to fail, Something is holding me back, Something is putting me off, If I don’t shake it off soon, I think I’ll go mad. I won’t quit, I’ve come to far, I can’t turn back now, My future depends…

I’ll be brief

Things have been a bit rough recently. I’ve been dealing with some issues in my life and I haven’t really had a lot of time or motivation to write anything. So, here’s what has been happening. I’ll keep this brief. I’ve been trying to pass my theory test so that I can progress with my…

Mirth? Eh…. No (pt2)

Update on my mirthless post from earlier. I took the plaster off. Beware if you are squeamish

Hi

Hey, it’s been a while since I’ve put anything on here. I have been dealing with a fair few issues recently, professionally, personally and health-related so I haven’t had the energy or the motivation to post anything here on WordPress. I will try and pull my thoughts together into some sort of coherent rambling in…

34

34? Really? 34?

Late present

Friday is my birthday and I will be [REDACTED] years old. Tonight I have been given a late birthday present from LAST YEAR, that has apparently been sitting in a drawer for the last year. Now if that was me I would have kept them for a week and said Happy Birthday but then that’s…

How can I stop the bad dreams?

It’s 2.25am I’m sitting on the couch because I’ve just been woken up by the little one screaming her heart out. She was sleeping peacefully then boom. I don’t know why? She seems to be in pain but nothing is hurting her. This is happening a lot and all I can think is that she…

Hey, It’s been a while

Hey everyone, it’s been a while since I posted anything on here. to be honest I have been thinking about giving up the blog. I haven’t had much time to put anything on here or had anything to say really. So, I don’t know if I will continue with this or not, I’m pretty sure…

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?

Seriously America? WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK? Another school shooting? Another ten children dead? GET RID OF THE FUCKING GUNS Is the ability to kill someone really worth the lives of your children being taken prematurely? I’ve already had an In depth discussion about gun control. The amount of idiots on twitter defending the gun rights…

Someone to bounce ideas around with.

Hey folks, How have you all been? I am looking for some help here. I have come up with an idea for a new book and I am looking for someone to talk to about it, bounce about some ideas. Anyone want to help me?

Random Question.

Practically everyday, at least twice a day, I get an email from WordPress saying that i have new Email Followers. This has been happening for at least the last two months, it is werid. When I actually log in and have a look, poof they are gone. It is really weird. So here is my…

Something on my mind

When I was eighteen I went away to work for the summer in London. I was working on the rods doing traffic management. I was away for the summer, made decent money and had a good time. I came back on the 31st of July that summer I was meant to come back on the…

I AM NOT A FUCKING MILLENNIAL!

Evening folks, As promised earlier its time for a rant. This afternoon I was scrolling through twitter and I came across a link to this article.   Here is the Full article I read it and through “oh for fuck sake this is just ridiculous” then I kept scrolling through the thread and I came…

This post is a warning ⚠

Ok this is a heads up. Later on tonight there is going to be a new post from me and it will be a rant. You have been warned

Adulting Is Hard

Well, today was an odd day. I spent the day with the little one as she wasn’t at the childminders today so got up and made her and myself French Toast for breakfast and it was good. Then after playing for an hour or so she fell asleep face down on the carpet. “YAY,” I…

The Package

It had been a long day and all Luke wanted to do was go home, have a hot shower and then collapse in front of the tv and watch a good film. Work had been hellish dealing he had to deal with all of the angry customers today in the shop and one of them…

Looking for a challenge

Hey everyone, I haven’t been really in the headspace recently for writing, and I want to try to get back into the swing of things. With that thought, I am looking for your help. If you would be so kind and are up for helping me I have a request. In the comments below can…

New Challenge

I am going to try a new thing tonight I am going to start writing for ten minutes straight with no clue what I am about to say just whatever my fingers decide to say.   And the ten minutes start NOW: Apparently today has been national unicorn day?? Who knew that was a thing…

Fancy a coffee?

I have decided to make some changes in my life, I have written about this before and anyone who’s read my post knows that to spend more time with my daughter and get some semblance of sanity back I am going to train to become a driving instructor. It’s going to be a long process…

Quiet Easter

I’ve had a quiet few days. The weather has been crap so it was with great delight that I found the bake off on Netflix. So I’ve been churning my way through it and it’s still awesome. I got a bit of the bug and tried to make Blondies. I may have buggered it up…

Resurfacing Memories [poem]

I’ve not thought of you for a long time, I’ve been living my life having moved on, Then the memory hits me of when you were mine, And I’m sent spiralling, remembering you’re gone. It comes out of nowhere, It hits me like a train, Haunting my memory, Bringing back the pain. My love for…

I won an award.

Last night I went to an awards ceremony. I had no idea why I was going, I didn’t know why I was invited or what I was nominated for. So I went along, being pretty clueless, and it turns out that I was nominated because I had published my first book on kindle. I got…

Closing the Door [poem]

When you close the door on the past, You move forward to the future, You never know how long the peace will last, Closing the door is hard, Letting go of what you thought was your true path, Part of that path will always linger, Wondering what could have been, But the future isn’t set,…

I’m going to an awards ceremony

A few weeks ago I received a rather strange letter. I have been nominated for and award at the annual Sports and Arts Awards. So the awards ceremony is tonight and yet I still have no clue what award I’ve been nominated for, why I have been nominated for it, or who has nominated me…

It’s official, I am Unemployable

Hey folks, it has been nearly two weeks since I have posted anything, so I wanted to do a quick update. Its been a rough week or so, I have had to face a few home truths and realisations on things. The first being that I had an interview for a job that I didn’t…

Taking the plunge

As some of you know I’ve been working on a Sci-Fi adventure novel set in the aftermath of an alien invasion and is about one man’s quest to to travel across the world to save the one person left alive that he cares about and save her from the aliens holding her captive. I’ve been…

It’s time for a change and time to say goodbye

I have been thinking of this for a while, and I have finally made the decision that it is time for me to move on and it is time to say goodbye. You may think this is a decision that I have made suddenly, but it isn’t. I have been thinking of this for a…

Did not see that coming [A ten word story]

Lightning Flashes, Thunder Crashes, The branch falls knocking him out. via Daily Prompt: Branch   [It’s been a while but I thought I’d bring back the ten word story, hope you like it]

I’m Not Running Anymore

Originally posted on Poet's Corner:
Submitted by  Colin . The wind howled through the trees, making the branches creak and groan, the moon is fighting to shine through the clouds, but it’s a losing battle, There is no light to shine my path, Running from the past, Moving towards the future, But I can’t…

Today has been rough.

The last 24 hours have been somewhat challenging. It started off yesterday with it trying to snow, there have been weather warnings for the past few days saying that there is a cold front coming in from Russia that is going to be causing problems in the near future. So, this was it at about…

End of my rope, I don’t know what to do anymore.

I feel like I am at the end of my rope. I have been out of work now for ten months and its starting to get to me. Not so much the not working part but it’s the constant rejections that I keep getting. I can’t count the number of emails I have received over…

Looking for Beta Readers

I am looking for Beta Readers to help me with my novel. I have finished it and now i am looking for people to help me give it a polish and get some feedback on it. Ideal I would be looking for people with experience in writing and editing, or anyonw open to a Sci-Fi…

Day out to the Lego Store

Today was fun, as we had nothing today decided to jump in the car and go through to Glasgow for a day out. There were two reasons that we decided to go to Glasgow. Reason One: Hadn’t taken the little one through there yet Reason Two: I wanted to go to the Lego Store. It…

Soaring through the Astral Plane [Poem]

Floating through the astral plane, Fleeting thoughts run through my mind, The freeing feeling lets me forget my pain, Letting me leave my past behind. Soaring over the landscape below, Rushing towards the horizon ahead, I can see the face of the one I know, Sitting bolt upright in bed, I now know where I…

Meh

Meh. That’s how I feel today, just meh. I am having a low night, nothing seems to make me feel anything, I just feel numb. I don’t know what’s caused it, earlier I was fine then all of a sudden it was like a someone flipped a switch and all feelings apart from either Meh…

Mystery Blogger Award…

Back on the 12th of January, I was nominated for this award by the fantastically talented and wonderful person that is Cyranny. My teeny tiny Canadian friend. It may have taken me a while to actually get round to this (22nd of February) whoops, sorry about that my friend so here is my eternal thanks…

Stupid Technology

For a while now I have been having problems with my phone. For some reason it hasn’t been charging, the charging cable would not stay in the phone, it would keep falling out. If I didn’t balance it just right at night, I would wake up to a phone that hadn’t charged. As you can…

What is Love?

Love is caring, Love is talking, Love is loss, Love is kind, Love is unyielding, Love is constant, Love is a promise, Love never leaves you, Love touches your soul, But most of all, Love makes life worth living, And Love is pain, Love lets you know that you are alive.

Sneaking Through The Darkness [Poem]

The darkness spreads across the land, Creeping and covering all that it encounters, All that is keeping me safe is the match in my hand, The traps ahead are going to be hard to counter. Sneaking through the darkness, Marking my movements against the memory of this place, Making my way through the rubble and…

Update on life

A few weeks ago, I posted on here that not only have I been out of work since May, and my wife got made redundant at the beginning of January, the company she worked for went into administration. Leaving us up shit creek without a paddle. I had to make a compromise with a promise…

I am slowly conquering the world.

I was creeping about my stats just now and I got to thinking about something that my good friend Cyranny said before on her excellent blog The Cove. (if you haven’t dropped by the cove I recommend you do because you will always find a warm welcome and a good laugh along with some incredible…

Making you think

My present thoughts are a mix of different things but there is one that is currently occupying my mind and I want to share it with all of you. So here is my gift to you. If ghosts are real, which I believe they are I have seen a few, why aren’t there any Dinosaur…

Courage to make changes.

In a follow up to my Post yesterday, people need to find the courage to make changes in the world. Here is a quote from a great man and writer that sums it up This also reminds me of another much older quote. Something has to be done, change is needed

Lost With Desire – Book still for sale.

Since today is valentines day, I thought I’d post this again. Available for purchase in all territories on amazon kindle. If you like some erotic fiction that not only has some hot sex but also stories of true love, then read on. [I have a suspicion that there will be a few of you]  …

Years from now….

[I wrote this story back in November and I read it again last night at The Writing Group that I joined last year and I thought that I would tweak it and repost it for valentines day. Enjoy.] One day, far in the future, living life the only way we will know how. Alone. Both…

The Space Between Us.

The images your memory conjures no longer causes pain, The memory of you lingers in my heart, I will always hold you close, I will never truly let you go, But you no longer haunt my soul, You live within me, Giving me strength, Giving me power, Together in memory, There is nothing we can’t…

Google Images Shock.

Earlier on the wife was on the phone with her cousin, who is getting married next year, and they were asking about when we got married how much the venue was. Off the top of my head, I couldn’t remember the exact price, so I pulled up the website to check out what the prices…

“Reviews” [Rant]

Hey folks, its rant time again. Today while I was roaming around on here, and I came across a post describing a “review” of a book that I have read in the last two years and loved Ready Player One. If you haven’t read it, I would highly recommend it. It is full of geeky…

Goodnight, We love you.

When I was growing up one of my favourite tv shows was Frasier, so it was upsetting to see the news at the beginning of the week that John Mahoney, who played Martin Crane, died on Sunday. Over the last few years there have been a lot of celebrity deaths, but this is the only…

Insist

If you insist on being a dick, then I’ll insist on smacking you in the face.

It’s been a long weekend :(

On Friday I posted that it has been a rough day, with the little one being sick. She seemed to be on the mend yesterday which was good. But now I can really sympathise with her as she has passed it on to me. Last night we nipped down to the shops to get bread…

It has been a trying day.

And here we are entering the home stretch I have now been awake for around 37ish hours. Last night I got to bed and had been asleep for about an hour when all of a sudden, the little one started choking. I ran got her out of bed picked her up, and she vomited all…

I’ll remember this [RANT]

Hey folks, it’s that time again, its time for another rant! It always amazes me how people can be so forgetful of what you have done for them. You do what you can to help them in a bad place when everyone else has abandoned them when you are the only one left that talks…

Today’s Milestones

Today has been an unexpected day for milestones. First off, my post that I posted was my 400th post! WOO HOO Two years ago when I started this blog I had no idea I would still be here 400 posts later. Looking back at my first post to now I have changed a lot in…

How did it end up like this?

  ‘How did it end up like this? It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss?’ I’ve been thinking about these words for a while now, the resonate deep within my soul. When I got home last night, I climbed into bed thinking about these words. It was a fantastic night. I met…

Missing from my core. [Poem]

There is an emptiness in my soul, There is a pain I haven’t felt before, A cavity that cannot be filled, How do I get over the loss? Where do I go from here? How can I wait for the time, The time that it will come back into my life? I cannot bear this…

Don’t you f*cking dare… [Angry Rant]

WARNING ANGRY RANT TIME. I am currently filled with boiling rage, I was talking to some friends not long ago, and I mentioned that I didn’t get to bed last night until 3.50am because the little one was up half the night. She had been down for a while and woke up wanting a bottle,…

This is me

Last night I went to the cinema with the wife to see The Greatest Showman. If you haven’t seen it or heard of it, it is the story of how P.T. Barnum set up the circus. Now based on what I have gleaned about the man himself before seeing the film it is, I have…

Finding new music

Last night I was having a chat with some friends of mine on Discord. We had a voice chat open as one of my friends and his wife were doing an online gig. Now these two are incredibly talented and I hope to high hell that they make it big one day. You should all…

RANT: WASTE OF BLOODY TIME

What a complete waste of time today has been. It is only just gone past 11am but already a stupid pointless morning. At 11am I was scheduled in for a telephone interview for a call centre job (which I really, really don’t want to have to go back to. Anyone who has been around my…

Why does this child hate sleep? I love sleep.

It was fun while it lasted. One night. Only one night that’s all I get. One full night’s sleep. That’s, apparently, now all that I’m allowed to get. I think I’ve had two hours sleep. As I write this it is currently 04.55 and we have been up since 3am. Midget started crying I picked…

One small step….

So last night I said that I was going to try and post more on here than I have been. Now while as per usual I haven’t had time to write anything I do have something to report. Tragically the little one is still sick with an ear infection and is fighting us every time…

Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes!

Hey folks, how have you all been? I am back from a sort of unintended break, I posted what my year has been like so far in 2018 and its been pretty shity year so far. But in an update to that, I can report that I have two interviews next week, and those are…

Better to Live Heartbroken than Heartless (poem)[I think]

Things have changed, My life is different, You are the reason I stayed the course, I will never forget the impact you made in my life, You were my first true love, The memories we made still make me smile, It has taken a long time, But those memories no longer break my heart, I…

2018, An update on the year so far.

Well here we are, two weeks into 2018 and it already has been a very challenging year. It started off same as any other year except that I was sick as a dog, had the sickness and diarrhoea bug that was going about so I felt awful. To top that off the little one was…

Happy new year 

Yeah i know I’m a bit late posting this as it’s now the 4th, but wanted to say Happy new year to everyone. I’m going to put more effort into this blog than I have done recently so I’ll be back soon. Once I get my Mojo back for writing. Its gone again,  So here’s…

It’s a weird thing to miss. 

You know I haven’t really thought about this before, until tonight. I stopped smoking back in May when I lost my job and I have been using a vape since then And tonight I realised the one thing I really miss about smoking I miss the Angry Cigarette. When having an argument you can angrily…

Christmas Cats 

I am normally not a huge fan of Christmas. The over saturation of it and the fact it starts getting rammed down your throat form September really annoys me. But this year it is the little ones first proper Christmas so I’ll indulge Here are some Christmas Cats and a baby 

One Year On

Its been a long time coming, but today it finally arrived. Today is the first birthday of the most important person in my life. I’m not going to say too much, I’m a bit emotional today. So here are some pictures.

Someone To Lava

I have been busy with life, I got a job and have been working and taking care of the little monster (it’s nearly her first birthday *gulp*) so things have been hectic, and I haven’t had a lot of time to post anything on here. Over the last few nights the little one has had…

Years from now…

One day, far in the future, living life the only way we will know how. Alone. Both of us will be making our way through the world waiting to see what life will throw at us next. You, in your world. Me, in mine. I’ll be making my way across the courtyard of the shopping…

I miss our conversations 

I’ve been thinking about someone who hasn’t been in my life for a long time now.  Some people reading this will know who I mean and what they meant to me and what I lost when I lost them. You may even be reading this yourself. You know who you are if you are here….

Announcement

Today has been a big day for me. I kept this quiet because it happened so fast but I got a part time job, and I started working tonight. Its not much and it is only for a few weeks until the beginning of January and then ill be back in the same position, but…

Suggestions for a title. 

I have decided that I am going to publish a book containing some of the erotic short stories that I have written. This is the picture I’m using for the cover and I need to come up with a title for the book.  I am looking for suggestions can anyone help? 

Mirror Reflection

Someone is looking back at me in the mirror, that person isn’t me. They are a being unto themselves. She looks like me, but She isn’t quite me. She has been following me in the mirror for five years now, ever since I lost my way in life, things changed then, I changed the direction…

What the fuck is wrong with people?

  It’s time for another one of my patented rants. I know some of you really enjoy these. Now I know that earlier today I put up a post saying that I was thinking about giving all this up, and I am still considering this as I don’t know where I am going anymore. But…

What to do? 

You may have noticed, or not, that I have been quiet for a while on here. Well the truth is I feel like I have nothing left.  I haven’t got anything to write, my inspiration is gone and I can’t find it anymore.  So I’m thinking about giving up completely.  I lost my original inspiration…

First Halloween 

So I’m a bit late posting this as it’s almost 10pm. But today was the little monsters first so naturally I had her dressed up here are the results  Cutest little monster in the world. 

Trick or Treat 

Pumpkin lanterns and trick or treat, Small children wandering round the streets, Wearing costumes Cute and Scary, Running from parents trying to be wary, For kids in costumes are all that’s on the prowl, Ghosts and Goblins are out on the town, Trying to steal the innocent and take them away, The monsters lurk in…