Ho Ho Fucking Ho!

Merry Christmas everybody, I hope you all had a good day and have been celebrating with your families or whomever you celebrate with. As for me well I have had a pretty shitty day. It all started last night (Christmas Eve) when the little one was getting ready to go to bed in anticipation for…

Update on life, Christmas is cancelled

Its been a while, I have been severely lax in updating this blog this last year and it is something that annoys me, I have said before that I haven’t had any inspiration to write recently and that’s true. But that’s not what I’m doing today this is just going to be a rambley update…

One of the problems I live with.

I have to get this off my chest, this is something that happened a couple of weeks ago and I wasn’t going to post anything about it but a thread on twitter brought it back to my mind and I felt I should put it on here so that I can get it off of…

It’s Time For A Change.

Hey folks, I have been away for a while, to be perfectly honest I have been considering giving up this blog completely. I haven’t had the time or motivation to keep it up. I want to address a few things in this post and gage a reaction from you lovely people who follow me see…

Let’s get back to basics.

Hello everyone, Hope you are having a good Sunday. I am looking for some inspiration. I really want to get back to writing again but I have not got any idea of what I could write about, I have got nothing going on in-between the old ears (no need to make a joke of that…

I really should listen to myself.

Why can’t I take my own advice? I mean seriously I am such a bloody idiot. The post I made a few days ago, inspired by an excellent yet weird drawing by Kira Scribbles, was all about not dwelling on the past, not looking back at what we can’t have, of what we have lost….

Dwelling on the past.

Everyone wants something. It could be money, food, power, love or even sex. We long for what we can’t have, we long for what we have lost, we worry about what may come. There is no pain greater than the loss of love, except that of what could have been. It may be a cliché…

I can never thank you enough.

Last week I put up a post that I wasn’t even sure I was actually going to post. I was asking for some help as I am really struggling in life right now and the response I got was overwhelming. You are all far too kind and generous and I don’t deserve to have such…

Oh I hate being in this position.

I never thought I would ever, in my life, write a post like this. As I am writing this I’m not even sure if I will post it or not I actually hate myself a little for even thinking about this but here goes.   As anyone who has even so much as glanced at…

I need your light (poem)[sort of]

I keep trying, Hitting my head upon the wall, No matter what I do I seem to fail, Something is holding me back, Something is putting me off, If I don’t shake it off soon, I think I’ll go mad. I won’t quit, I’ve come to far, I can’t turn back now, My future depends…

I’ll be brief

Things have been a bit rough recently. I’ve been dealing with some issues in my life and I haven’t really had a lot of time or motivation to write anything. So, here’s what has been happening. I’ll keep this brief. I’ve been trying to pass my theory test so that I can progress with my…

Hi

Hey, it’s been a while since I’ve put anything on here. I have been dealing with a fair few issues recently, professionally, personally and health-related so I haven’t had the energy or the motivation to post anything here on WordPress. I will try and pull my thoughts together into some sort of coherent rambling in…

Hey, It’s been a while

Hey everyone, it’s been a while since I posted anything on here. to be honest I have been thinking about giving up the blog. I haven’t had much time to put anything on here or had anything to say really. So, I don’t know if I will continue with this or not, I’m pretty sure…

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?

Seriously America? WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK? Another school shooting? Another ten children dead? GET RID OF THE FUCKING GUNS Is the ability to kill someone really worth the lives of your children being taken prematurely? I’ve already had an In depth discussion about gun control. The amount of idiots on twitter defending the gun rights…

Someone to bounce ideas around with.

Hey folks, How have you all been? I am looking for some help here. I have come up with an idea for a new book and I am looking for someone to talk to about it, bounce about some ideas. Anyone want to help me?

Something on my mind

When I was eighteen I went away to work for the summer in London. I was working on the rods doing traffic management. I was away for the summer, made decent money and had a good time. I came back on the 31st of July that summer I was meant to come back on the…

Adulting Is Hard

Well, today was an odd day. I spent the day with the little one as she wasn’t at the childminders today so got up and made her and myself French Toast for breakfast and it was good. Then after playing for an hour or so she fell asleep face down on the carpet. “YAY,” I…

New Challenge

I am going to try a new thing tonight I am going to start writing for ten minutes straight with no clue what I am about to say just whatever my fingers decide to say.   And the ten minutes start NOW: Apparently today has been national unicorn day?? Who knew that was a thing…

Fancy a coffee?

I have decided to make some changes in my life, I have written about this before and anyone who’s read my post knows that to spend more time with my daughter and get some semblance of sanity back I am going to train to become a driving instructor. It’s going to be a long process…

Closing the Door [poem]

When you close the door on the past, You move forward to the future, You never know how long the peace will last, Closing the door is hard, Letting go of what you thought was your true path, Part of that path will always linger, Wondering what could have been, But the future isn’t set,…

It’s official, I am Unemployable

Hey folks, it has been nearly two weeks since I have posted anything, so I wanted to do a quick update. Its been a rough week or so, I have had to face a few home truths and realisations on things. The first being that I had an interview for a job that I didn’t…

Taking the plunge

As some of you know I’ve been working on a Sci-Fi adventure novel set in the aftermath of an alien invasion and is about one man’s quest to to travel across the world to save the one person left alive that he cares about and save her from the aliens holding her captive. I’ve been…

Today has been rough.

The last 24 hours have been somewhat challenging. It started off yesterday with it trying to snow, there have been weather warnings for the past few days saying that there is a cold front coming in from Russia that is going to be causing problems in the near future. So, this was it at about…

End of my rope, I don’t know what to do anymore.

I feel like I am at the end of my rope. I have been out of work now for ten months and its starting to get to me. Not so much the not working part but it’s the constant rejections that I keep getting. I can’t count the number of emails I have received over…

Day out to the Lego Store

Today was fun, as we had nothing today decided to jump in the car and go through to Glasgow for a day out. There were two reasons that we decided to go to Glasgow. Reason One: Hadn’t taken the little one through there yet Reason Two: I wanted to go to the Lego Store. It…

Soaring through the Astral Plane [Poem]

Floating through the astral plane, Fleeting thoughts run through my mind, The freeing feeling lets me forget my pain, Letting me leave my past behind. Soaring over the landscape below, Rushing towards the horizon ahead, I can see the face of the one I know, Sitting bolt upright in bed, I now know where I…

Meh

Meh. That’s how I feel today, just meh. I am having a low night, nothing seems to make me feel anything, I just feel numb. I don’t know what’s caused it, earlier I was fine then all of a sudden it was like a someone flipped a switch and all feelings apart from either Meh…

Mystery Blogger Award…

Back on the 12th of January, I was nominated for this award by the fantastically talented and wonderful person that is Cyranny. My teeny tiny Canadian friend. It may have taken me a while to actually get round to this (22nd of February) whoops, sorry about that my friend so here is my eternal thanks…

Update on life

A few weeks ago, I posted on here that not only have I been out of work since May, and my wife got made redundant at the beginning of January, the company she worked for went into administration. Leaving us up shit creek without a paddle. I had to make a compromise with a promise…

Years from now….

[I wrote this story back in November and I read it again last night at The Writing Group that I joined last year and I thought that I would tweak it and repost it for valentines day. Enjoy.] One day, far in the future, living life the only way we will know how. Alone. Both…

Google Images Shock.

Earlier on the wife was on the phone with her cousin, who is getting married next year, and they were asking about when we got married how much the venue was. Off the top of my head, I couldn’t remember the exact price, so I pulled up the website to check out what the prices…

“Reviews” [Rant]

Hey folks, its rant time again. Today while I was roaming around on here, and I came across a post describing a “review” of a book that I have read in the last two years and loved Ready Player One. If you haven’t read it, I would highly recommend it. It is full of geeky…

Goodnight, We love you.

When I was growing up one of my favourite tv shows was Frasier, so it was upsetting to see the news at the beginning of the week that John Mahoney, who played Martin Crane, died on Sunday. Over the last few years there have been a lot of celebrity deaths, but this is the only…

It’s been a long weekend :(

On Friday I posted that it has been a rough day, with the little one being sick. She seemed to be on the mend yesterday which was good. But now I can really sympathise with her as she has passed it on to me. Last night we nipped down to the shops to get bread…

It has been a trying day.

And here we are entering the home stretch I have now been awake for around 37ish hours. Last night I got to bed and had been asleep for about an hour when all of a sudden, the little one started choking. I ran got her out of bed picked her up, and she vomited all…

I’ll remember this [RANT]

Hey folks, it’s that time again, its time for another rant! It always amazes me how people can be so forgetful of what you have done for them. You do what you can to help them in a bad place when everyone else has abandoned them when you are the only one left that talks…

Don’t you f*cking dare… [Angry Rant]

WARNING ANGRY RANT TIME. I am currently filled with boiling rage, I was talking to some friends not long ago, and I mentioned that I didn’t get to bed last night until 3.50am because the little one was up half the night. She had been down for a while and woke up wanting a bottle,…

This is me

Last night I went to the cinema with the wife to see The Greatest Showman. If you haven’t seen it or heard of it, it is the story of how P.T. Barnum set up the circus. Now based on what I have gleaned about the man himself before seeing the film it is, I have…

Finding new music

Last night I was having a chat with some friends of mine on Discord. We had a voice chat open as one of my friends and his wife were doing an online gig. Now these two are incredibly talented and I hope to high hell that they make it big one day. You should all…

Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes!

Hey folks, how have you all been? I am back from a sort of unintended break, I posted what my year has been like so far in 2018 and its been pretty shity year so far. But in an update to that, I can report that I have two interviews next week, and those are…

Better to Live Heartbroken than Heartless (poem)[I think]

Things have changed, My life is different, You are the reason I stayed the course, I will never forget the impact you made in my life, You were my first true love, The memories we made still make me smile, It has taken a long time, But those memories no longer break my heart, I…

2018, An update on the year so far.

Well here we are, two weeks into 2018 and it already has been a very challenging year. It started off same as any other year except that I was sick as a dog, had the sickness and diarrhoea bug that was going about so I felt awful. To top that off the little one was…

One Year On

Its been a long time coming, but today it finally arrived. Today is the first birthday of the most important person in my life. I’m not going to say too much, I’m a bit emotional today. So here are some pictures.

Someone To Lava

I have been busy with life, I got a job and have been working and taking care of the little monster (it’s nearly her first birthday *gulp*) so things have been hectic, and I haven’t had a lot of time to post anything on here. Over the last few nights the little one has had…

Years from now…

One day, far in the future, living life the only way we will know how. Alone. Both of us will be making our way through the world waiting to see what life will throw at us next. You, in your world. Me, in mine. I’ll be making my way across the courtyard of the shopping…

Thinking By The Fire.

Its that time of the year, The time for remembering, The time for celebrating, The time to remember the love we once had, The time to remember the love that is still there, We were meant to be together, It’s truly what I believe, I knew this the day that we met, I should have…

Where do we go from here?

I thought things were going well, We were getting along, I told you things not many know, I trusted you, giving you a peak behind the mask, A glimpse into the depths of my madness, You touched my soul. Then something happened, We stopped talking as much, You started to pull away, We drifted, Lost…

Inspirational Bloggers Award

I have decided to create this Inspirational Bloggers Award to celebrate and promote some of the bloggers that I follow and love their blogs. They are people who continually surprise me with their innovation, creativity, sense of humour and insane talent. These are people that I feel need to be celebrated, so I want to…

Fifteen years, has it really been that long?

Today is the 6th of October, today is a day to remember for me. Today is my Grandad’s birthday.     He was a great man who had a considerable influence on my life he died fifteen years ago on the 31st of July 2002 if he were still alive he would have been 98…

Always stuck in second gear

So no one told you life was going to be this way. Your jobs a joke, your broke, your love life’s DOA, It’s like your always stuck in second gear, When it hasn’t been your day, your week, your month or even your year. Everyone knows these words. I was watching an episode of friends…

This is a true and slightly disturbing story

This is a true story and happened to me about ten or twelve years ago when I was out in Edinburgh for a night out, and I was rather drunk. It was about 1 am, and I was heading for the bus to go home, when I was walking towards the bus stop I met…

Fear

Let’s talk about fear. Tonight, I started a writing course that my wife bought for me on Groupon a few months ago. I have been trying to get back into writing properly, so I thought id boot it up and have a go. The first section is about Genres, and it came up with an…

Things not to do

Number 1: When someone is having a bad day or a rant do not, I repeat, DO NOT, tell that person to “chill” all you are going to do by saying this is make them even angrier. Number 2: When someone is talking to you and saying about something that they are struggling with do…

Tales from the Call Centre (Commenters Edition)

A while ago I put out a request for stories from anyone who has worked in customer service and Cyranny was kind enough to send me about ten common traits so here they are for your enjoyment. Colin started this a little while back, and I was looking for my best call centre stories… Having…

Messed up dreams

My head is messed up. Recently I haven’t been sleeping well, tossing and turning, waking up every hour or so and that’s not just when my little monster is wanting to be fed in the middle of the night. And then there are the dreams. I have been having some really messed up dreams lately…

The Wizerding World, and my place in it

Over the last few days, I have been trying to find things to keep me occupied when the little one is away at the childminders. (being unemployed sucks) So one of the things I found yesterday was the website Pottermore, which is the site run by JK Rowling and is all about the Wizarding world…

Writing Group.

A few weeks ago, I put up a post about Writing groups and asking if they were any good. Last night I took the chance and went along to one. It was a strange experience, and I am not 100% sure if I am going to stick it out, but I went along to see…

Pfft… I hate the neighbours

Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo I just had to call the police. I was sitting here quite happily having a cup of tea watching random things on YouTube when all of a sudden there was a lot of banging and shouting coming from next door. It sounded like there were about ten people in there trying to kill each…

This is a personal post

Before you read this post, I want to say that this isn’t my usual fun post, it’s not a story, poem or anything irreverent. It is an intensely personal post about something that I have to get off my chest, its something that has been bothering me for a while and today it has come…

Things not to say…

About a year ago I had a made a few posts on here called “Things not to say to your pregnant wife.” it was a short lived thing of the stupid things that I said to my wife when she was pregnant. this was before I learned to keep my mouth shut and not say…

Music that describes your life

Hello everybody, Ok so there is a website/app that I use on a daily basis (other than WordPress of course), and tonight I was a little bit bored, so I posted this Now through all of the usual crap that you would expect to crop up, there was one gem of a question that really…

I will try to fix you

I have a feeling things will be coming to an end soon, I know things will be hard for a while, Don’t worry you know I’m here staring up at the same moon, It doesn’t matter how long it’s been, I’m always ready to go the extra mile, You know some of the things that…

300

Well, that was unexpected. I started this blog over a year and a half ago, I never really thought I would get very far with it. As I have said before it was just a place for me to post some stories that I had written without them being heavily censored. I never thought that…

I’m Here

I see you, I know you’re there, Always watching, Always waiting, You don’t need to be shy, I always want to hear from you, Don’t be shy, You know I’m always here.

Why we write

I write to keep myself sane, Sanity is fleeting, If you don’t fight for it, you’ll feel the pain, So I write to keep myself going, Knowing that it’s a ferocious battle, It doesn’t take much for the madness to start to rattle, It started for different reasons, But I continue to keep myself sane,…

Goodbye my friend

Today I lost a friend. One of the few people who I could tell anything to, one of my best friends. And I didn’t even get a chance to say goodbye properly. She has gone off to work on a scientific expedition to Antarctica and won’t be back for about a year. I don’t know…

First Love

When you look back on your first love, what do you think? Sometimes the memories hurt, sometimes they are good, it all depends on how it ended. Sometimes you misremember things making them seem worse or better which ever it is the other half may end up being foggy in your memory. This is something…

I’ve been cooking.

Today I have spent a lot of time in the kitchen. This morning I got up, the wife had already dressed and fed the baby, we took the wife to work then I had to go to B&Q to buy some wood glue so that I can get the little one’s cot built over the…

Friends.

Last night I was talking to a friend of mine, and it got me thinking. I don’t have many friends, I have no one that I can call up on a random day I’m not busy and see if they want to go out for lunch or for a drink, coffee, tea or things like…

Place holder.

I haven’t posted anything for a couple of days but fear not gentle readers I am working on something that is an incredibly personal reflection on my life and will hopefully help deal with somethings. But it’s taking time. So in the mean time have this I shall return soon